Once upon a time I had my very own happy little world.. :)

Back when I was a kid I lived in my my own little world where I believed in everything & anything.....

Making wishes being my favorite among them all...
When blowing the candles of my cake I used to make a wish..
When my tooth came off I used to wrap it in a small piece paper with my wish written & keep it below my pillow..
When seeing a shooting star I used to make a wish..
When my eyelash accidentally used to fall out I used to make a wish with it..
When it was christmas time I used to write my letter, the long list of wishes for the secret santa..

I believed in a world where everything came true through wishing.
I believed in fairies, angels, cookie monsters, in a list of fancy mythical creatures in short..

I smile & the world smiles back at me.
All are good & the biggest crimes one could commit were steal a jar of cookies, a box of chocolates or a pack of ice cream!

These are the times when I wish I had never grown up..
The way I was I was the happiest one of all..
I was the little princess of my little world were none could harm or steal my joy..
& yet I would always love to go to that happy little world of mine.. one fine day :)

The Sunset

A beautiful Sunday evening, though it was humid, there seemed to be a warmth in the wind..
I sat there by the edge of the rocks, by the sea.. staring deep into the waters...
I had the strong urge to just take a giant leap right into the waters, to just go as deep as I can, just to see how it feels like..maybe..
It would be cold...bitter cold.. the first gulp I take of the salty water would leave me breathless for a while..a few seconds or maybe even minutes... but then a big gasp for air after the jump could prepare me further for the dive.. deeper and deeper into the mystical sea...
To the deepest point I could go, enjoying the wonders in the sea through my journey...a world beyond our imagination at times it seems to be, but the sea has always fascinated me from quiet long...

The strong rush of cold wind, leaving me goosebumps made me come back to my senses..
Oh yes, I was still sitting right there by the edge of the rocks.

I got up from where I sat, dusted the sand off my feet and butt and from there I could see behind me, the cave, which I still hadn't yet explored..
Well its never too late for anything, two..three..four steps and I was already by the mouth of the cave...
Its a small one, but all the more seems dark inside..
Walking through it , gave me a slight chill... just imagining myself to be, maybe inside one of those caves, in movies, which are dangerous,unexplored, and shelters the scary creatures.. hahhaa, really I do have a wild imagination..
As I ran my hands through those walls, I could feel some writings...
I took my phone, and through its faint light, I saw them, pictures...not done by ancient cave men of course but by the modern men LOL "Ahmed Loves Laila" , Call me "55***45**"...
Really its funny to think what people get out of these, there perspective of seeing this maybe different, but I would call it utter stupidity..
Walking, and walking, I reached the other end of the cave.. so much for the chills and imagination.. Nope nothing here...nothing that interests me to be frank...

I went back and sat in my old place.. by the edge of the rocks..
Its past 5, oh yes sunset...
You could see the sky turning a husky yellow first, then orange...
Capturing the most beautiful picture with my mind lens, I looked keenly at the setting sun..
As the huge tennis ball went down and down, I saw it disappear right there into the sea..
It just made me smile... the end of a day, leaving all your worries and tensions there behind you, all you need to do now is give your mind some rest and a wait for a new sunrise, do not carry your worries of the day, nor carry it forward to the next, no burdens, no tensions, every day has something interesting for you, it will be more promising and lovelier than the previous one.. give it a smile and wait for the new huge tennis ball to rise..

The sunsets ... but for a new sunrise....

The Toothless Smile

Its coffee time! I walk into my favorite cafe and grab a seat by the window. Sipping my coffee and watching an old man tie his shoelace I get bored, all his attempts to tie that lace seems to be ending up in vain, come on is it that hard?! I get back to my coffee which is almost half done, should I order one more, well maybe. Thats when I hear a soft giggle behind me. Its a family, a dad , mum and the owner of that giggle , a small pretty little kid. As I watch her, she is digging into her waffles, pouring syrup bits all around her and basically making her own cute mess on the table.She licks the syrup off her spoon, her tiny fingers, and wipes it on to her frock. Then she looks up, notices me, twitches a bit and smiles.. "wallaaahh", all four of her front tooth are missing, what more do you want to make your day go better. I wave a "hie" at her, and she smiles again, the cute "toothless smile".

Her spoon falls down on to the floor, she looks down and then looks up at me, so I hold my fork up and show it to her. She slowly gets down from her chair and walks over to me, her tiny feet and those little tiny steps, all the more cute. She takes the fork and gives a run for it, hahahaa. Now she is back and ready to give the mess she made, a grand end. Level 1, complete, bits of waffles syrup here and there, on her frock, her fingers, all over the table, but her plate is all clean and licked up and she is happy looking at it,the "toothless smile" again. Her mum takes the napkin wipes the syrup bits of her face, she is satisfied and fully content with her work.

My coffee being done, the second one, I slowly get up, grab my bag and as I walk over to the door, I here little steps behind me, I turn around and there she is, I kneel down and she offers to me her little jelly toffee. I take it from her and give her a small kissy on her rosy cheeks, hehehe she is happy and so am I and to add on it there she gives me, her "toothless smile" and runs back to her parents. I get up and as I head over to the door I feel at peace somehow.

 Its funny how your quiet boring evening turns out to be a good one towards the end... All thanks to the "toothless smile"..!!

SIGNATURE INTO AUTOGRAPH....





I look around I see people happy
I see they have a much better life than mine
I see their satisfaction from their chosen paths
And then I feel like being this big looser in life
What do I have? Were did I go wrong?
Who's to be blamed?
The corrupt system,which eats away your brain..jails your thoughts..and..limits yourself into a nutshell..
Or is it the so called fate?ulitmate destiny?
How do you fly,when your wings have been cut off?
How do you breathe,when you have forgotten how to?

There's always a tomorrow after every today..but hope my today's tomorrow will be much better than my yesterday's today..

And I learned the way to success is the longest and a "never look back path"...
The day when finally signature turns into an autograph...!!!!!!!

The word Iam mostly faced with..NOooo

I don't know why but the word I am mainly faced with 's no. A girl can't do this,a girl can't do that etc etc but why? Even in this 21st century there are still people who aren't ready to accept the changes to be bought about in this fast moving life.

I am a person with a lot of dreams but "shoot" my circumstances never allow me to let them free.I would love to travel a lot, go for hiking, bungee jumping etc but to be frank I haven't yet tried any of this.Wish even life was as easy as it looks to be like in movies...the problem arises then somehow a solution's found, your loved ones come up to help you and then the curtain falls "and they lived happily ever after".

Its true what William Shakespeare once said "All the world's a stage, and all the men and women merely players: they have their exits and their entrances; and one man in his time plays many parts, his acts being seven ages".But in my life the sad part's I feel I haven't played any of my acts properly.I haven't been truthful to myself or even life as a whole.I have been doing things on someone else s order's, a mere puppet whose threads are being pulled by many at the same time.

But now my conscience isn't allowing me to go forward the way I am going now.Its time I take a firm stand.Now its time I follow what my heart says,all this while I had been stopping myself from doing so because I felt it would hurt my loved ones but now its time that things change after all "there's no gain,without pain".Now my path's clear and my will to strive for my goal even more stronger than before....Now its time I play my role cogently...

Flirting With Danger

As I had mentioned in my previous entry,1 of my favourite pass time hobby's reading and my favourite author's Paulo Coelho.The book which Iam now engaged in reading of his' "The Witch Of Portobello" is one which exhibits a fusion of philosophy,religious miracle and moral parable.

The words in the novel which made an impact on me are"flirting with danger". Really simple words but when put together makes all the difference.I don't know what exactly the author meant by them but when seen from a normal reader's perspective I think they mean flirting with life as a whole.That's to say that it describes how (the main character in the novel) faced her life with a smiling face and a calm attitude,about how she never quit in her quest in search of her inner gifts and talents and finally about how one should believe in one's true identity and keep seeking for it if one has not yet found it yet.

Me The Way Iam

Talking about myself,my name Deepthi Joseph.Then coming over to the deeper aspects sweet,cute,attractive,dazzling etc would not be the words I would use to describe myself rather it would be determined,bold,unique,optimistic,stubborn etc,the words which describe me the best.Iam who Iam and no one can ever change me no matter what happens.I like adventures and Iam always eager in exploring new ventures in life.Talking about my hobbies the first and foremost one would be reading and my favourite authors include John Grisham,Danielle Steel,Paulo Coelho etc.

Well other than reading my other interests include music of artists like Selena Gomez,David Archuleta,Vannessa Hudgens,Hillary Duff,Celine Deon etc in Englich and as an Indian I've rather great interests for the Indian music as well in which Shaan,Mohammed Rafi,Hariharan,Shreya Goshal etc are my favourites.At times I also do like peppy and fast numbers and dancing to their beats till I get axhausted.

When it comes to socialising Iam a person who takes time to get adjusted with the changing environments and it does take time for me to make friends.Maybe that's reason why Iam very selective or choosy when it cums to my friends but the ones I make are very dear to me and I give them my 100% no matter what the case or situation might be.

Iam not a rough and tough kind of person but Iam a person who values ones cultures and traditions and one who gives more priority to family and society as a whole.Well I guess thats it I can summarise about myself and put into this small space,were my negative traits weigh more than the positive ones..this's me Deepthi Joseph the way Iam...

As an ending note I would just like to quote the following lines:
"Two roads diverged in a wood,and I-
I took the one less travelled by,
And that has made all the difference"